God, gimme the best way, please..

ya Allah, why you made me fly for a while time, and now you let me down. You bring me the hell after you let me smell the heaven, You gimme a darkness, when you let me see the light! arrghh.. why you dont let me brake, why you dont make me feel so lonely forever. and now, i cant be move. i have to wait so long for this moment, but now you bring me the curse. arghhh please, let me feel the happiness, let me find my world, let me find my own, and let me find someone who really love me. Allah,i wanna get my peace, and i want to being happy. please, gimme the best way :)