seisi ruangan pun kontan melihat kearah dimana munculnya suara itu.
dewa afro. sang dewa kebenaran
'apa alasanmu dewa? dia adalah pencuri bola ajaibku' tanya baginda
'bukan dia pelakunya' ujar dewa afro tenang 'aku akan menunjukannya padamu'
sedetil kemudian angin pun menerobos kencang kedalam ruangan, mengoyak semua jendela dan pintu dan menjadikannya reruntuhan. angin itu pun mengangkat sang afro dan membuatnya serata melayang diudara didetik berikutnya datanglah cahaya putih yang menyilaukan mata, membentuk gambaran-gambaran yang kukenal. ya.. aku sangat mengenalnya, itu adalah saat dimana aku memetik buah-buah cherry di taman istana, lalu datanglah 2 ekor burung, mengajakku menari. aku pun meletakan keranjang cherryku direrumputan dan dengan senang menghampiri burung-burung itu dan ikut menari bersama mereka. dan tak lama kemudian, hei lihat itu! ada yang datang mendekat. itu milka, si peri susu. dan, apa yang dia bawa itu? ohh tidak! itu bola ajaibnya, dan ia pun meletakan bola itu dikeranjang cherry ku! sedetik kemudian, ia pun manghilang
gambar-gambar itu pun menghilang, sang afro pun telah kembali berpijak.
'aku mengerti sekarang' ujar sang baginda
'oh flori.. sudikah kau memaafkan diriku yang telah mencacimu, dan menghakimimu dengan kata-kata kasar?' ujar baginda dengan perasaan bersalah
'aku tak apa, aku tak marah padamu baginda'ujarku 'terimakasih dewa' ujarku dengan tubuh membungkuk seraya memberi hormat
sang afro pun tersenyum, dan sedetik kemudian menghilang
'baginda, maaf. tapi sepertinya aku tak bisa tetap tinggal disini' ujarku
'mengapa? aku akan melakukan apapun untukmu agar kau memaafkanku'ujarnya msih dengan perasaan bersalah
'oh tidak, buka itu, tapi aku ingin menghiru udara bebas dan bermain-main bersama hewan-hewan diluar sana, menikmati indahnya mentari pagi ditempat yang lapang' ujarku menjelaskan
'oh baiklah jika itu maumu, aku akan membiarkanmu pergi. namun pintu kerajaan akan selalu terbuka untukmu jika kau ingin kembali' ujar sang baginda
'terimakasih baginda' aku pun menunduk untuk menunjukan rasa hormat dan terbang menuju dunia luas. namun sebelum aku benar-benar pergi, aku berpamitan kepada seorang peri yang selalu menemaniku sedaru kecil. Cornelius Hendrick.
aku pun menghampirinya, mengucapkan selamat tinggal, memberi salam a'la kami saat bertemu maupun berpisah. aku tak ingin berlama-lama melihatnya, karna aku yakin, aku tak akan kuat menahan air matakku untuk mengucapkan selamat tinggal padanya, karna dari dulu kami selalu bermain bersama.
'sedikit lagi sampai' ujar hendrick menyadarkanku dari ingatan masa laluku. dia melihatku, lalu tersenyum. aku pun melihatnya, memperhatikan setiap detil wajahnya. tak ada yang berubah, dia masih seperti dulu, masih Cornelius Hendrick, teman semasa kecilku
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Jumat, 01 Januari 2010
kegundahan part.5
'benarkah itu?' tanyaku ragu
hendrick pun menjawab dengan mengedipkan sebelah matanya
aku pun tersenyum 'lalu apa yang harus kita lakukan?'
'kau tau apa yang harus kita lakukan'
sekali lagi aku tersenyum, lalu kami pun terbang menuju kerajaan. namun fikiranku kembali melayang kesebuah moment dimana sebuah keberuntungan memihak kepadaku
saat dimana aku diusir dari kerajaan
secara hina
'pergi kau makhluk hina, kau tak panta s berada disini' ujar raja Sep Carey 'disini adalah tempat untuk para peri2 jujur dan baik hati, bukan peri hina yang suka mencuri seperti kau!' ujar baginda murka
sep carey adalah raja di kerajaan kami, kerajaan peri. namun ia bukanlah seorang peri, ia adalah seorang penyihir. perbedaan itu sebenarnya tidak mengganggu kami, karna ia dipilih oleh chaeron, sang dewa pemilih.
'aku bersumpah, aku tak mencuri bola ajaibmu baginda!' Ujarku membela diri 'aku bersumpah demi dewa amrogo'
'Diam kau! Kau tak pantas menyebut nama dewa amrogo' ujar baginda murka
'Usir saja dia!! Usiiirr' ujar seisi ruangan
'dia tidak bersalah' ujar seseorang
hendrick pun menjawab dengan mengedipkan sebelah matanya
aku pun tersenyum 'lalu apa yang harus kita lakukan?'
'kau tau apa yang harus kita lakukan'
sekali lagi aku tersenyum, lalu kami pun terbang menuju kerajaan. namun fikiranku kembali melayang kesebuah moment dimana sebuah keberuntungan memihak kepadaku
saat dimana aku diusir dari kerajaan
secara hina
'pergi kau makhluk hina, kau tak panta s berada disini' ujar raja Sep Carey 'disini adalah tempat untuk para peri2 jujur dan baik hati, bukan peri hina yang suka mencuri seperti kau!' ujar baginda murka
sep carey adalah raja di kerajaan kami, kerajaan peri. namun ia bukanlah seorang peri, ia adalah seorang penyihir. perbedaan itu sebenarnya tidak mengganggu kami, karna ia dipilih oleh chaeron, sang dewa pemilih.
'aku bersumpah, aku tak mencuri bola ajaibmu baginda!' Ujarku membela diri 'aku bersumpah demi dewa amrogo'
'Diam kau! Kau tak pantas menyebut nama dewa amrogo' ujar baginda murka
'Usir saja dia!! Usiiirr' ujar seisi ruangan
'dia tidak bersalah' ujar seseorang
kegundahan part.3
aku duduk mematung disamping mayat prajurit itu. kutetesi dia dengan air mataku yg tiada henti mengalir. hatiku berbicara 'ohh, apalagi ini? apalagi yg akan terjadi?'
tiba2 aku mendengar suara langkah kaki yg mendekat, 500, 1000, oh tidak ada 5000 pasang kaki yang terdengar semakin mendekat. aku pun berdiri untuk melihat keadaan. dan, itu kerajaan musuh! mreka menyerang! oh.. Tuhan, apalagi yang akan terjadi?! aku pun mengepakan sayapku, dan mulai melihat sekeliling. nihil. tak ada apapun, oh apa yg harus aku lakukan?
"FLORI!" panggil seseorang, "KEMARI! CEPAT CEPAT"
aku mencari2 dmana asal suara itu, dan itu dia!!
aku melihatnya, Cornelius Hendrick, dr bangsa peri. sama seperti aku.
dengan sekuat tenaga aku pun terbang kearahnya.
'apa yg terjadi? apa yg tlah kau lakukan!!' ujarnya begitu aku tiba
'aku tak tau, aku tak mengerti! tp aku melihat seorang prajurit kerajaan musuh mati. sebelum ia mati, ia berkata bahwa dia dibunuh oleh prajurit kerajaan kita' ujarku dengan nada sedih
'tidak mungkin' ujar hendrick
'mengapa tidak?' tanyaku bingung
'karena.......'
tiba2 aku mendengar suara langkah kaki yg mendekat, 500, 1000, oh tidak ada 5000 pasang kaki yang terdengar semakin mendekat. aku pun berdiri untuk melihat keadaan. dan, itu kerajaan musuh! mreka menyerang! oh.. Tuhan, apalagi yang akan terjadi?! aku pun mengepakan sayapku, dan mulai melihat sekeliling. nihil. tak ada apapun, oh apa yg harus aku lakukan?
"FLORI!" panggil seseorang, "KEMARI! CEPAT CEPAT"
aku mencari2 dmana asal suara itu, dan itu dia!!
aku melihatnya, Cornelius Hendrick, dr bangsa peri. sama seperti aku.
dengan sekuat tenaga aku pun terbang kearahnya.
'apa yg terjadi? apa yg tlah kau lakukan!!' ujarnya begitu aku tiba
'aku tak tau, aku tak mengerti! tp aku melihat seorang prajurit kerajaan musuh mati. sebelum ia mati, ia berkata bahwa dia dibunuh oleh prajurit kerajaan kita' ujarku dengan nada sedih
'tidak mungkin' ujar hendrick
'mengapa tidak?' tanyaku bingung
'karena.......'
kegundahan part.4
AAAAAA!!!' teriak seseorang. aku pun terbangun dr pingsanku, perlahan ku berdiri. 'drmn dtgnya suara itu?' ujarku, 'TOLOONG!!' teriak suara itu lg. dengan langkah yg menyeret aku pun mulai mencari dimana asal suara itu.. tak lama kemudian, aku melihat setitik kecil bayangan diantara pepohonan. aku pun mulai mendekat. perlahan2, selangkah demi selangkah, bayangan kecil itu pun terlihat semakin dekat. dan.. oh tidak!! itu suara manusia, ya seorang manusia yg terkapar tak berdaya. aku pun mulai mendekat lagi, lagi dan lagi, memperhatikannya sera detail, dan duduk disampingnya. oh.. cairan apa itu? merah, dan kental. darah! ya darah! 'ada apa ini? apa yg terjadi?' tanyaku panik. 'oh peri, aku tertusuk oleh salah satu prajurit dr kerajaanmu' stelah mengucapkan itu, ia pun menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya
aku pun terdiam, dan membisu..
sebegitu besarkah pertikaian ini? sehingga pertumpahan darah pun terjadi. satu nyawa telah hilang. apakah harus ada lg pertumpahan darah?
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aku pun terdiam, dan membisu..
sebegitu besarkah pertikaian ini? sehingga pertumpahan darah pun terjadi. satu nyawa telah hilang. apakah harus ada lg pertumpahan darah?
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lrgundahan part.2
tunggu. ujar suara lain..
aku pun mulai mencari dimana asal suara itu.
TUNGGU KAU PENGHIANAT!! ujar suara itu lagi
oh tidak, apalagi ini? Tuhan, apalagi kesalahan yg tlah ku lakukan, sehingga suara itu terus meneriakiku?
'apakah kau tak sadar? kau telah menghianati kami, para tetua kerajaan dengan mendatangi kerajaan musuh!! apakah kau menyadarinya wahai PENGHIANAT?!'
oh tidak. ternyata itu! 'tidak! hamba bukanlah penghianat tuan, hamba hanya melaksanakan tugas dr tuan mentri, hamba hanya menjalankan misi perdamaian dengan kerajaan itu, rakyat telah lelah terus menerus bertarung! lagi pula telah bnyak darah yg tumpah sia2'
suara itu pun semakin murka, mencaci makiku dengan kata2 kasar.
aku menutup telingaku, berusaha untuk menghindar dr suara itu. tp aku pun tak kuasa lagi, suara itu memekikan telingaku, dan sakitnya mulai mengoyak tubuhku. aku pun jatuh pingsan tak berdaya
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aku pun mulai mencari dimana asal suara itu.
TUNGGU KAU PENGHIANAT!! ujar suara itu lagi
oh tidak, apalagi ini? Tuhan, apalagi kesalahan yg tlah ku lakukan, sehingga suara itu terus meneriakiku?
'apakah kau tak sadar? kau telah menghianati kami, para tetua kerajaan dengan mendatangi kerajaan musuh!! apakah kau menyadarinya wahai PENGHIANAT?!'
oh tidak. ternyata itu! 'tidak! hamba bukanlah penghianat tuan, hamba hanya melaksanakan tugas dr tuan mentri, hamba hanya menjalankan misi perdamaian dengan kerajaan itu, rakyat telah lelah terus menerus bertarung! lagi pula telah bnyak darah yg tumpah sia2'
suara itu pun semakin murka, mencaci makiku dengan kata2 kasar.
aku menutup telingaku, berusaha untuk menghindar dr suara itu. tp aku pun tak kuasa lagi, suara itu memekikan telingaku, dan sakitnya mulai mengoyak tubuhku. aku pun jatuh pingsan tak berdaya
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kegundahan part.1
angin menyelinap masuk disela2 rambutku, memainkannya, lalu memilinnya perlahan..
tentram. ujar suara kecil. yaa.. ketentraman yang kudapat setelah semua kejadian aneh yang menimpa hidupku.
'hahaha kau telah berhasil sayang' kata suara kecil itu lagi. tp tunggu? berhasil apa? aku bingung dan akhirnya termenung lagi. aku menunggu menunggu dan menunggu lagi, namun suara kecil itu tak lagi bersua. hanya keheningan.
bosan.. entah mengapa aku menjadi bosan akan tempat ini, suasana ini, waktu ini, jam ini, menit ini, dan detik ini. bosan akan kehidupan yang kujalani. lalu aku pun terbangun dan mulai beranjak dr tanah merah tempatku termenung tadi, menghirup udara, dan mulai mengepakan sayapku bersiap terbang.
'tunggu' ujar suara yg lain
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tentram. ujar suara kecil. yaa.. ketentraman yang kudapat setelah semua kejadian aneh yang menimpa hidupku.
'hahaha kau telah berhasil sayang' kata suara kecil itu lagi. tp tunggu? berhasil apa? aku bingung dan akhirnya termenung lagi. aku menunggu menunggu dan menunggu lagi, namun suara kecil itu tak lagi bersua. hanya keheningan.
bosan.. entah mengapa aku menjadi bosan akan tempat ini, suasana ini, waktu ini, jam ini, menit ini, dan detik ini. bosan akan kehidupan yang kujalani. lalu aku pun terbangun dan mulai beranjak dr tanah merah tempatku termenung tadi, menghirup udara, dan mulai mengepakan sayapku bersiap terbang.
'tunggu' ujar suara yg lain
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Senin, 23 November 2009
the new one
waaa gue lagi jatuuuhcintaa lgdeh kayaknya, tapi masihtetep dengan perbedaan yang sama,astagaaa..knapa gue harus berurusan sama mereka2 yg punya perbedaan itu,dankenapa harus diaaa?huaaaaaaaaaaaaa mana kayaknya gue udah adafeel gituuu lagi sama dia hahahaha aseekk deehh ahahha tapi dia cueeekk banget. hemm kayaknya bakalan susah jugabuatdeketin diahahahatapi yaa gppdeehh.. tantangan yekan? wish mee luckk yaaa :)
half alive lyric
It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
And you touch my hand ever so slightly
(Girl we're not ready for this yet)
And the deadly look she cast upon me
I won't regret, I won't regret
I won't regret. I won't regret...
And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.
I'm almost alive
And I need you to try and save me.
It's okay that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight, tonight
Tonight...
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
I need to survive tonight, tonight
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
And you touch my hand ever so slightly
(Girl we're not ready for this yet)
And the deadly look she cast upon me
I won't regret, I won't regret
I won't regret. I won't regret...
And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.
I'm almost alive
And I need you to try and save me.
It's okay that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight, tonight
Tonight...
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
I need to survive tonight, tonight
Sabtu, 07 November 2009
UNTITLED
hmm, satnite kmrn seru bgt. ngebolang sma abang n boris hahahaha bang tengs bgt ya, lo udah mau nemenin gue ntn tu konser, maaf jg ya bang pulangnya jd malem gtu hahaha buat boris, maaf bgt ya aku udh ngerepotin kamu, haduuh dont know what to say.. tp yg jelas seru bgt (Y)
God, gimme the best way, please..
ya Allah, why you made me fly for a while time, and now you let me down. You bring me the hell after you let me smell the heaven, You gimme a darkness, when you let me see the light! arrghh.. why you dont let me brake, why you dont make me feel so lonely forever. and now, i cant be move. i have to wait so long for this moment, but now you bring me the curse. arghhh please, let me feel the happiness, let me find my world, let me find my own, and let me find someone who really love me. Allah,i wanna get my peace, and i want to being happy. please, gimme the best way :)
BUAT SI PECUN-DANG
lo tau ga? gue udh ksel bgt ngeliat lu, lo th cm bkin gue sakit hati doang, ngasih2 harapan palsu, tp akhrnya lo ninggalin gue. lu tau? tdnya gue udah mulai percaya ama lu, tp lu udh bkin gue gni! bkin nama gue jelek di skolah. gue KECEWA BANGET SAMA LO!! muka lo BANYAK YE CUN!! gue heran, Tuhan ko nyiptain manusia ky lo ya? yg ga bermoral. eh eh iya, lu tau ga? lelucon lu itu bikin gue KETAWA TERBAHAK2, saking LUCUNYA!! HAHAHAHA lo blg th cm guyonan? helloo, can you open your eyes? nama gue jelek! kata lo jg, lo mau minta maaf ke semua orang kan? MANA BUKTINYA?? dan apa dgan lo minta maaf, nama gue bs KEMBALI BERSIH lg?! dasar lo, TUKANG FITNAH!! tanggung jawab lu njing!!
new life
hahaha gue seneeeng bgt akhirnya gue bisa ngelupain dia. ternya dia ngasih gue kebebasan dibalik ini semua, gue jadi bebas liat cwo2 cakep, bebas ngapa2in deh tanpa harus laporan wkwkwkwkkw yaahh hidup emang menrik banget. apalagi dengan kebebasan yang gue punya sekarang hahahahha hidup emang harus dinikmati karena cuma sekali
Selasa, 20 Oktober 2009
always be my baby to nicolash wahyu putranto
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
'Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on and on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
Do do doop do doop da dum
Do do doop dum
Do do doop do doop da dum
Do do doop
Do do doop do doop da dum
Do do doop dum
Do do doop do doop da dum
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
'Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on and on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
Do do doop
Do do doop do doop da dum
Do do doop dum
Do do doop do doop da dum
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart babe
Our love will never end, no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on and on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my baby
(I know that you'll be back boy)
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder, oh
(I know that)
You'll be right back, baby
Well, baby believe me it's only a matter of time, time
You'll always be apart of me
And I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on and on
(And we will linger on and on)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
(Ooh baby)
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
You'll always be apart of me
And I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
(No, no)
(You and I will always be)
And we'll linger on and on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
(You and I)
No way you're never gonna shake me
(You and I)
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
'Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on and on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
Do do doop dum
Do do doop do doop da dum
Do do doop
Do do doop do doop da dum
Do do doop dum
Do do doop do doop da dum
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
'Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on and on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
Do do doop
Do do doop do doop da dum
Do do doop dum
Do do doop do doop da dum
I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart babe
Our love will never end, no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on and on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my baby
(I know that you'll be back boy)
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder, oh
(I know that)
You'll be right back, baby
Well, baby believe me it's only a matter of time, time
You'll always be apart of me
And I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on and on
(And we will linger on and on)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
(Ooh baby)
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
You'll always be apart of me
And I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
(No, no)
(You and I will always be)
And we'll linger on and on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
(You and I)
No way you're never gonna shake me
(You and I)
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
it's not over to nicolash wahyu putranto
My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over
I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever
It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over
I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever
It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over
get lost.. 031008 - 191009
gue putus sama nicho. dan itu karna dia suka ama cwe lain yang mirip sama gue. Tuhan cobaan apa lagi ini? knapa orang yang kusayangi begitu mudahnya berpaling dan pergi bersama perempuan lain? sudah banyak bgt yang gue korbanin buat dia tapi knapa dengan gamnpangnya dia pergi? ini gak adil buat gue! pengorbanan yang guie kasih ke dia, bisa kesaing gitu aja cuma karna ada cwe itu. oke gue tau dia ga bisa pacaran longdis, tapi knapa dia slalu ngeyakinin gue kalo kita tuh emang dah ditakdirin buat sama2. gue udah terlanjur sayang ama dia but "he dumping me like dish" (fiori's said) ohh God what happened? i wanna get him back, i wanna hold him and never let him go again, i wanna fly together with him, like yesterday.. God is it wrong if i love him? fiori's said : love is not about waiting but love is something we really belive and anything that makes your mate being happy. and maybe until the last time he still doesn't want to hurt you? or ,aybe he wants to find the best time to say itu to you? who knows? he's been too much and i don't like that. who does he think he is? a hero? nonsense!" she said that after i said "i never thought that i'm so strong, i stuck on him and wait so long" and did you know readers? nichp lebih mentingin bales sms itu cwe drpd gue. he said "emang kamu bisa nemenin hari2 aku? kamu tuh jauh flo" ahhh sedangkal itukah pikiran dia, dia ngorbanin semuanya, semua rasa sayang gue, hancurin hidup gue, mupusin semua harapan gue ke dia cuma karna 'jarak' argghhh he always take him way when everything is wrong. God, why you give me a lot of patient???
lost / 19 10 2009
i cant belive its over
i watched the whole thing fall
and i never saw the writing
that was on the wall
if i'd only knew
the days were slipping past
that the good things ever last
that you were crying
summer turned to winter and the snow turned into the rain
and the rain turned into tears upon your face
i hardly recognize the girl you are today
and God i hope it's not too late, hoo it's not too late
'cause you're not alone
i'm always there with you
and we'll get lost together
until the light comes pouring through
it;s when you feel like youre done
and the darkness had won
baby, you're not lost
when ypu're world has crashing down
and you cant bear the cross
i said, baby you're not lost
life cant show no mercy
it can tear your soul apart
it can make you feel like you've gone crazy but you're not
things have seemed to change
there's no one thing that's still the same
in my heart you have remined
and we can fly fly fly away
i said baby you're not lost
i said baby you're not lost
i said baby you're not lost
i said baby you're not lost
i watched the whole thing fall
and i never saw the writing
that was on the wall
if i'd only knew
the days were slipping past
that the good things ever last
that you were crying
summer turned to winter and the snow turned into the rain
and the rain turned into tears upon your face
i hardly recognize the girl you are today
and God i hope it's not too late, hoo it's not too late
'cause you're not alone
i'm always there with you
and we'll get lost together
until the light comes pouring through
it;s when you feel like youre done
and the darkness had won
baby, you're not lost
when ypu're world has crashing down
and you cant bear the cross
i said, baby you're not lost
life cant show no mercy
it can tear your soul apart
it can make you feel like you've gone crazy but you're not
things have seemed to change
there's no one thing that's still the same
in my heart you have remined
and we can fly fly fly away
i said baby you're not lost
i said baby you're not lost
i said baby you're not lost
i said baby you're not lost
Sabtu, 10 Oktober 2009
Instant Family
hahahaha hari ini walaupun hujan tapi bisa seneng2 bareng chelly and abang. hmm gue kangen IF yang dulu, yang selalu bareng2 dan ga misah2 kaya gini. aduuhh apalagio sekarang banyak banget kebohongan2 yang disembunyiin dr anggota IF, apalagi ttg masalah cwo, aduuhh padahal dulu sama sekali ga ada kebohongan2. hmm udah gitu semakin banyak aja anggota IF yang pimdah, pas gue masuk kemarem nenek udah pindah, knapa sih dadakan bgt??? padahal gue kan kangen ama dia. Tuhaann, kapan sih IF nemuin kebahagiaan kaya dulu lg, yang bisa seneng2 tanpa ada masalah. blm lagi masalah sama kk kelas, gue sampe bingung karna banyak bgt kk kelas yang gak suka sama gue n temen2 gue. padahal bikin genk juga nggak, IF tuh keluarga bukan genk. hmm udah gitu ADEK2 KELAS JAMAN SKARANG NYOLOT2 BGT, GUE AJA AMPE DIPLOTOTIN, taii laaahh hahahha tp biarlah anjing menggomggomg, IF tetap berlalu hehehe yaahh mungkin kalo mau menjadi orang yang baik harus ada cobaannya, dan mungkin ini cibaan yang harus anak IF jalanin buat saat ini. whatever you;re, i still love you INSTANT FAMILY :)
Sabtu, 03 Oktober 2009
happy 1st anniversary
hahaha akhirnyaa gue udah setahunan sama nicho,yaahh awalnya emang gak kaya yang gue harepin, tapi hari itu emang special bangett ahahahha yaahh pertamanya dia emang kayak nyari gara2 gitu ke gue, dan bikin gue marah2, tp dia gagal gr2 gue marah beneran ama dia hahahha yaahh gpp deeh, dia bilang dia mau berusaha buat ga putus2 lg ama gue, yaaahh mudah2an aja bener, amiinn :)
Kamis, 17 September 2009
Long Distance Relationship
hmm entah deh apa yang terjadi setiap malem, gue selalu aja susah tidur huuhh. bukan karena insomnia, tapi yaa mungkin emang guenya aja yang suka mikirin hal yang mumet sebelum tidur hahaha naah saat itu juga gue lagi smsan sama cwo gue,nicho. naahh saat gue mikirn hal yang rumit2 tadi gue sms gini ke nicho "aku kesepian ga ada kamu :(" hmm gue emang kangen bgt gaada dia, saoalnya yaa karena pacaran aja long distance. hmm keadaan jarak diantara gue ama dia slalu aja jadi penghalang. dia kpgen bgt pacaran kaya anak2 normal yang lain, yang bisa ketemuan tiap hari, jalan2, satnitean hmm gue suka kepikiran masalah itu. gue kepengen bgt bahagiain dia, tapi itu semua ga mungkin bgt. gue ga bisa ada disamping dia saat dia butuh gue. komunikasi aja cuma smsan sama tlf2an hmm gimana ue mau bikin dia dijakarta, kecuali saat dia dijakarta kaya waktu itu. yaah setiap liburan dia emang selalu ke jakarta, tapi yaahh yang namanya 6 bulan sekali pasti gue juga kangen banget sama dia. 2 minggu dia dijakarta bener2 bikin gue terhibur. bisa setiap hari ketemu dia, itu bisa bikin gue bahagia bgt. yaaaahh agak lebay mungkin, tapi gimana siih erasaan lo semua kalo misalnya ga ketemu cwo lo selama 6 bulan, blm lagi pasti dijogja sana juga banyak bgt cwe2 yang (mungkin) suka sama pacar lo hahaha itu yang bikingue resah. putus nyambung cuma karena jealous atau masalah2 kecil.. yaaaaahhh tapi bukannya emang itu yang bikin makin mesra hihihi
ga tau yaa apa yang terjadi dikehidupan gue, tapi gue punya cwo. namanya nicho. entah kenapa gue bisa sayang bgt sama dia, dan perasaan itu muncul disaat gue pertama kali berhubungan sama dia via sms (padahal waktu itu gue lg ga single) hmm, yaah mau gimana cuma nicho yang ngasih gue perhatian saat itu, dan cuma ia juga yang bs bikin gue senyum. hidup gue juga pada saay itu lg bener2 kosong, dan entah gimana caranya dia berhasil narik perhatian gue disaat pertama kali kita smsan. 3 september 2008 gue sama dia mutusin buat jadi PBA (Pacar Boongan Aja) hhihi dia tuh unik banget, ada aja hal2 yang tercetus di fikiran dia, dan hebatnta bikin gue terkesima.. hahahha gue jadi PBA sama dia sekitar 1 bulan, dan tepat 1 bulan setelahnya kami jadian hihihi sampe sekarang hubungan kami menjelang 1 tahun. menurut gue itu suatu hal yang luar biasa, soalnya kami pacaran longdis. nicho sekolah di sma n 1 jogjakarta sedangakan gue sma 10 jakarta hahahaha dan anehnya waku gue jadian sama dia, gue sama sekali blm pernah ketemu hahaha tapi mungkin itu yang bikin cerita cinta gue jadi menarik :) hehehe makasih ya Tuhan, karena engkau telah mempertemukanku dengan dirinya
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